unfamiliarity with my skin baffles me even today
there is a bruise on my toe i just noticed
it’s old and healing and dry
wild hair sprouts from my belly button
it’s long and dark and mad
why does the mirror say i’m still the same?
the pimples of childhood have somehow vanished
there is only aftermath of scratches on my face
time has made me thick skinned, some tell me
you're fat, you're fat, you're fat, they say
is that why the photographs say i’ve changed?
i once took a mirror to the bathroom
an exercise no adult would like to hear
i opened my legs and looked right at my vagina
my labia, my clitoris, my pubic hair
i stared and i stared and i stared
why do i not find a woman there?